Today, I want to share more of me rather then just what I have been creating for others and their events (although that is still a big part of what makes me, me). I realized though that I don't share enough of my personal life. It's not that I need to but in order to connect with readers, it's important to really know the person behind the blog. Not sharing a whole lot of my personal life has been purposeful because I'm a little scared to really put myself and my feelings on the web. Once you "publish" a post, there's no going back and that's what scares me.
Although it is a beautiful life-it can be difficult at times. I've had people say say, "I want your life," "I want to be as successful as you" or even "you seem to have it all together." I find it strange when people say these things because I most certainly don't have it all together and I make mistakes-A LOT. When I thought about why I would hear these things, I realized that I only post what I want people to know/think-not because it isn't me but because I only let the "good/positive" door open to the outside world. I love my family and I love creating but like I said,
I have many moments where I want to give up on many projects I undertake because the stress overwhelms me but because it will make someone else happy, I don't. As I admit that, it makes me cry because that is the first time I've finally said it. I am still learning to prioritize.
I'm so incredibly grateful for my husband because he is the biggest supporter of me and is the best to talk to when I need advice for something. He has more confidence in me then I do in myself. That is the truth. When he talks about me, the first thing I want to do is say something negative about myself or make his comments seem like they were exaggerated. That is so awful right? I don't know why I do it and it's something I need to work on. I need to believe in myself and believe it when I say it!
God created us in his image and we are perfect the way we are. The sooner we understand this, the sooner we can love ourselves and truly appreciate our lives to the fullest.
Honestly, I had no idea that I was going to write this post the way it turned out. I don't want you to think that I'm upset or wish I had another life or anything depressing like that. I just want to share my heart today and let you know that it's ok to not have it all together because nobody does-no matter what they may portray. It's ok to have meltdowns because you don't think you are a perfect mom-if your baby loves you and smiles at the world-you must be doing something right. It's ok to feel stressed because everyone needs a break. It's ok to feel vulnerable because sometimes sharing your deepest feelings is the best therapy. These are some of mine.