The BIGGEST leap of faith.

I just made one of the biggest decisions in my 23 years of living. I feel quite liberated actually! I have made the choice to leave nursing school. Yes, I am now a "nursing school drop-out"! Not because I can't do it (I know I can) but because I know there is another path for me. I have shed tears due to stress, confusion, happiness, and sadness. I missed being at home with my husband and my son. I missed my shop. I missed being creative. I missed daydreaming of new ideas. I missed seeing my friends. I missed not being stressed out 24/7. I used to think that doing what I loved to do should only be a hobby-otherwise it would lose all of it's value. I used to think that if I left nursing school, I would regret all of the time and hard work I put into it. I used to think that I was superwoman and I could handle having a full plate. I used to think that it would get easier if I just stayed.   I believe that God doesn't waste our experiences and I don't regret going through the schooling that I have and dedicating my time to it. Nursing will always have a positive impact on my life.   I have met some amazing, life-long friends along the way. I have learned to listen and not just hear. I have learned about the power of healing by touch and just holding someone's hand. I have learned that no matter how great you are at technical skills, the ability to have a positive impact on someone's attitude matters most. I have prayed with a complete stranger and continue to pray for her. I have seen depressed people smile. I realized that God places people in your life for a reason, whether it's for a short period of time or much longer. I have seen how technology can play a huge role in healing. I have seen inside of the human body and the intricate anatomy that we don't get to see on a regular basis. I overcame my fear of handling needles. I learned what being an advocate really means. I also learned that although I love making others feel better, I don't need an RN license to do that. It was hard to fight off feelings that there was something else that I was created to do while I tried my best to study and read and finish care plans and make drug cards. I am fortunate enough to have a choice in what I want to do for the rest of my life and not what I have to do. I am grateful for my supporting husband, family, and friends. This decision will be one that I will forever look at as a {life changing experience} and I feel at peace with my decision. My priorities right now is my family and expanding my creativity (maybe even a visit to NY? :) I have several projects underway and I will be opening my shop again soon. Right now, it's time for a breather and a bit of relaxation.